Mouth Of Babes
Author: Gina Gallo, © 1999
It's a limited curriculum.
For kindergarten classes in Chicago's Public School system, only the basics
are taught - the ABC's, Coloring 101, Number recognition and, to help the
kiddies develop some social skills, Intro Playground. For some kids, it's
enough. For others, like Miguel Ramos, it's nothing.
He's a difficult case, the teachers agree. They've seen his kind before
- the dysfunctional child of a child. His mother's just seventeen and seems...well,
irresponsible. And the father? They've never seen Miguel's father- not even
sure he's around, so that can't bode well. Since Spanish is the language
spoken at home, Miguel doesn't understand much English. Hard to tell what
he understands since he doesn't speak, merely stares at his teachers with
those big dark eyes that seem centuries older than his face. During class,
he tracks the colored letters of the flashcards, the bright pictures of
puppy and kitten and car, and shows no emotion, no recognition at all.
"Learning disability," his teachers murmur, and then shake their heads.
In the overcrowded, understaffed inner city schools, it's easy for a kid
like Miguel to fall through the cracks. But the teachers do what they can.
Patiently line the crayons along the boy's desk, point out the colors, repeating
numbers drawn on the board, and hope that something sinks in.
What they don't know is that Miguel is already a cum laude graduate of the
School of Hard Knocks, a degree conferred to children in his circumstances.
His daddy Javier's been in prison longer than Miguel's been alive . A narcotics
bust sent him up, one he took the dive for, but that can happen when you're
in a gang. Nobody rats on their brothers - it's part of the code of the
street. So Raoul sits in a 6 X 8 at Stateville, marking time and wondering
about the son he's never seen.
Miguel's mother? Already leeched of their childish roundness, Alicia's arms
and face bear the tattoos that mark her as an Insane Cobra. The same gang
her parents were in, the same that will embrace her son. Miguel is a gang
baby - a cycle that starts at birth, ends when the casket is lowered into
the ground. And in between, whatever fate allows.
For gang babies, even their christening is a pledge of allegiance. After
the Church's standard religious ritual, gang members bring their baby home
for a night of revelry. Like most other families, except that here the bassinette
is draped in gang colors - Cobras' green and black for Miguel. No christening
gown, only a tiny set of gang colors that herald the baby as a future 'banger.
And photographs of the blessed event that show the proud parents, flashing
gang signs in the background, pointing to the baby. His tiny hands are crossed
over the black semi-automatic pistol they placed on his chest. A totem for
the bloodshed to come, or an indication that this baby is already dead....it'll
just take a few years for the bullet to catch up with him.
But Alicia doesn't think about that much. It's hard on the street without
her man, harder still with a kid. Hard to scrape up the money for food and
drugs and the party life she still desires. Cobras are expected to run with
their set. She needs their friendship, and more than that, their protection.
Gang women aren't safe alone out here, and without Javier, anything can
happen. The other Cobras look out for her, but like everything else, protection
costs. Her body is still the currency that pays the fee, but there are younger,
finer bitches out there, threatening to replace her. Girls who don't live
minute to minute worrying about the next fix. It's oblivion Alicia buys
with a needle and a spoon, escape from the thrusting men who use her and
move on. At seventeen, she's strung out, used up, and beyond caring about
anything but getting high.
So when the phone calls come from Miguel's school, Alicia ignores them.
The gueras are crazy - there's nothing wrong with her kid. He knows plenty!
At five years old, he already knows how to chamber a round in the family
guns - an important lesson in the survival game. He knows about gang loyalty,
and protecting what's his. How to identify friends and enemies. And didn't
she teach him how to bag marijuana for street sales, adding enough stems
to increase the gram weight? Her kid is smart - street smart. In the Cobras'
world, that's all that matters.
When the phone calls give way to letters, she brushes them aside. Miguel
doesn't have a learning disability! So what if he doesn't talk? Better that
than to be jabbering and screeching like some little brats. She knows he's
normal, even if she doesn't spend much time with him herself. Hanging out
and getting high takes up a lot of her time, but Miguel can handle it. Teach
him to be independent, - a real man, just like his Daddy.
So Miguel's teachers do what they can. Flashcards and numbers and color
names are patiently repeated to the silent staring boy. While the other
children play in the schoolyard, he stands alone. No reaction moves his
somber face, no emotion lights his ancient eyes.
But on one Friday morning, everything changes. Miguel's class is visited
by 'Officer Friendly," a cop who comes to speak with the kids. Taking in
the blue uniform and silver badge, Miguel's eyes widen in recognition. He's
seen cops before, all over his neighborhood, and hears his mother speak
of them. And she spits afterward, like a curse.
But this cop is different. He's got a gun - another thing Miguel knows about,
and he's smiling. He walks around the room, joking and laughing, showing
pictures to the kids. Talking about some bad dude named 'Stranger Danger.'
Miguel turns the unfamiliar words over in his mind .He mouths them silently,
savoring the feel. "Stranger Danger." English words that mean trouble.
The class listens intently to Officer Friendly. The big cop shows other
pictures - large drawings of the trouble Stranger Danger can bring. You
never know where he'll turn up, the cop says. Could be on the street, or
in a car. Miguel thinks of the drive-bys in his neighborhood and nods. He
knows all about Stranger Danger. And figures that maybe this is one cop
who's okay. He knows about taking care of business, protecting against enemies.
Like the Cobras, Officer Friendly carries a gun, and he wears blue like
the other cops, which must be the color of his gang. The little boy nods
again. It's part of the street code, just like the Cobras. And for the first
time, Miguel's teacher sees him smile.
Several nights later, police respond to a 'shots fired in the house' call
at Miguel's address. A man's bleeding body is sprawled across the threshold,
and even in the dim light, his prison tattoos are clearly discernible. It's
Javier, recently paroled and returning home to his wife and child. The wife
who now nods incoherently over a crack pipe while the child holds a smoking
9mm Glock. Catching sight of the approaching police, Miguel points at his
father, and proudly, carefully speaks those exotic English words
"Stranger Danger."
Copyright 1999 by Gina
Gallo
Gina Gallo served 16 years on the Chicago police force and is the author
of
Armed
and Dangerous: Memoirs of a Chicago Cop, available at Amazon.
Gina may be reached at: [email protected]
Visit her Web site at www.gallostories.com
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